Michelle Duggar's heartbreaking words to baby Jubilee

Michelle Duggar's heartbreaking words to baby Jubilee:

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Link to Memorial Graphics

I am blessed to make graphics for women all around the world that have lost a baby.  I searched and searched for Memorial Graphics and found little.  I make them in memory of my own Angels.  I am touched when I hear from these women of how much they love and appreciate what I make for them.   I have said many times, making the graphics these little lives are recognized and it is like I "know" them.  If I can make something and it brings a moment of comfort, it is worth the many hours I have spent.

I will post a link to a website where some of my graphics are located.  You can also request graphics made especially for your Angel.

http://public.fotki.com/memorial3/

Psalm 139 (Wonderfully Made)

Normal

What is "Normal"?

Normal is having tears waiting behind every smile when you realize someone important is missing from all the important events in your family's life.

Normal for me is trying to decide what to take to the cemetery for Birthdays, Christmas, Thanksgiving, New Years, Valentine's Day, July 4th and Easter.

Normal is feeling like you know how to act and are more comfortable with a funeral than a wedding or birthday party... yet feeling a stab of pain in your heart when you smell the flowers and see the casket.

Normal is feeling like you can't sit another minute without getting up and screaming, bucause you just don't like to sit through anything.

Normal is not sleeping very well because a thousand what if's + why didn't I's go through your head constantly.

Normal is reliving that day continuously through your eyes and mind, holding your head to make it go away.

Normal is having the TV on the minute I walk into the house to have noise, because the silence is deafening.

Normal is staring at every baby who looks like he is my baby's age, and then thinking of the age she would be now and not being able to imagine it.  Then wondering why it is even important to imagine it, because it will never happen.

Normal is every happy event in my life always being backed up with sadness lurking close behind,  because of the hole in my heart.

Normal is telling the story of your child's death as if it were an everyday, commonplace activity, and then seeing the horror in someone's eyes at how awful it sounds.  And yet realizing it had become a part of my "normal".

Normal is each year coming up with the difficult take of how to honor your child's memory and her birthday, and survive these days, and crying to find the balloon or flag that fit's the occasion. Happy Birthday? Not really.

Normal is my heart warming and yet sinking at the sight of something special my baby loved.  Thinking how she would love it, but how she is not here to enjoy it.

Normal is having some people afraid to mention my baby.

Normal is making sure that others remember her.

Normal is after the funeral is over everyone else goes on with their lives, but we continue to grieve our loss forever.

Normal is weeks, months, and years after the initial shock the grieving gets worse sometimes, not  better.

Normal is not listening to people compare anything in their life to this loss, unless they too have lost a child.

Nothing, even if your child is in the most remotest part of the Earth away from you, it doesn't compare.

Losing a parent is horrible, but having to bury your own child is unnatural.

Normal is taking pills, and trying not to cry all day because I know my mental health depends on  it.

Normal is realizing I do cry everyday.

Normal is disliking jokes about death or funerals, bodies being referred to as caddavers, when you know they were once a loved one.

Normal is being impatient with everything and everyone but someone stricken with grief over the loss of your child.

Normal is sitting at the computer crying, sharing how you feel with chat buddies who have also lost a child.

Normal is feeling so common bond with friends on the computer in England,  Australia, Canada, the Netherlands, and all over the U.S.A., but yet never having met any of them face to face.

Normal is a new friendship with another grieving mother, talking and crying together over our children and our new lives.

Normal is not listening to people make excuses for God. "God may have done this because..."  I love God, I know that my baby is in heaven, but hearing people trying to think up excuses as to way healthy babies were taken from this Earth is not appreciated and makes absolutely no sense to this grieving mother.

Normal is being too tired to care if you paid the bills, cleaned the house, did laundry or if there is any food.

Normal is wondering if this time whether you are going to say your have three children or two, because you will never see this person again and it is not worth explaining that my baby is in heaven.  And yet, when you say you have two children to avoid the problems you feel horrible as if you have betrayed your baby.

Normal is avoiding McDonald's and Burger King playgrounds because of small happy children that break your heart when you see them


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Normal is asking God why he took your childs life instead of yours and asking if there even is a God.

Normal is knowing I will never get over this loss, in a day or a million years. 




 And last of all,, Normal is hiding all the things that have become "normal" for you to feel, so that everyone around you will think that you are "Normal."

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Welcome

I would like to welcome you to my little place on the web.  It is my hope that your visit here brings comfort and healing to your heart.  I would like to extend my Greatest Sympathy in the Loss of your Loved One.  I share with you, what is in truly "in my heart."  I take pride in creating each and every one of these special graphics.  It is a true "labor of love" and I pray that you can feel that your loved one is near and that the love always remains forever in your heart. 

Over the years since I started this Ministry, I feel like I am getting a glimpse into your heart as well.  I don't know how to explain it other than I am spending time with these babies and loved ones and think of them each time I come to work on my gifts to you. 

Inpegsheart Ministry started from my attending a Support Group for Grieving Mothers.  One of the Mothers made a statement that she wished she could find an artist to draw a picture of the daughter she lost at 11 weeks gestation as a part of her family.  We discussed that these babies are a part of our families and since at that time  (1990's) it was not the norm to take photos of our babies lost at that gestational age and really even now at any gestation.  We need something to hold on to.  We need others to "see" that our babies will always be a part of our lives.  I don't draw but, I served as the Secretary with this group for a short time.  It was my duty to send a card for the 1st Anniversary to the families in the group.  I could not find a card at that time and decided to purchase a rather expensive graphics program for my computer to make my own cards.  I knew nothing about graphics or computers and have never learned how to "do" html...   But, I played around with a program that came with my first little web cam.  Somehow, I learned to do what I do.  I know it has developed into a Ministry that I am humbly striving to unite what is in all of our hearts.

I hope that you will help this site become a personal Ministry and that you will share with us about your Loved one.  No one is just a name or a number here.  We are not put on this Earth to survive alone.  We need each other.  I believe that each person that comes into our lives, was put here for a reason.  We may never know.

If you would like to request a graphic to be made for your loved one, please send me a message here.

May the Lord Bless You and Keep You!